Sometimes I wonder if God allows things to happen just to make us laugh? I know that he has a sense of humor, just look at some of those animals he created. I'm excited about the possibility of embryo adoption. At one point I did not want to do it just because I can't picture myself pregnant. (But that's another post for another day!) But I have gotten to the point that I'm truly excited about this venture and pray that it's the road God has us travel to grow our family. But then Chad tells me yesterday that our social worker called and asked if he could show our profile to an expectant mother. The only information given is that she's 23 and is close to her delivery date. I almost wish he hadn't told me! I know that if we're chosen that this is God's plan for us to have a family. But something inside of me was a little discouraged that if we are chosen that embryo adoption is not the path we are to take.
I guess you could say I'm on the fence with having our profile shown but I don't want to mess up what God has in store for us! I'm definitely praying about it all!

Pray that the LORD your God will tell us where we should go and what we should do. Jeremiah 42:3

Some news...

Today Chad told me to call the clinic in Birmingham to see where we were on the waiting list. Well I got the call and we are #20 which means a 6-9 month wait. I am so surprised and excited! I was expecting to hear 30-35 and to wait a good 18 month wait. God is moving! And yet through it all I've learned to trust in Jesus, I've learned to trust in God! Through it all I learned to depend upon His word!!

Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

That fork in the road....

Which road do we take?? After having our phone conversation with the other agency, Chad and I just aren't comfortable going that route. One of the biggest factors is that the bulk of the money is needed up front before we begin anything with them. We could possibly get some of the money but not all of it. Also there were a few concerns that Chad wasn't comfortable with. And I don't want him to agree to do anything that he doesn't have peace about.
So this brings me to the other choice we have (thus the fork in the road). Chad mentioned that he really wants to pursue the embyro adoption. He so desires to go to doctor appointments with me, to hear a baby's heartbeat, and to be able to leave the hospital with our child. He's called the NEDC (National Embryo Donation Center) in Knoxville several times and is waiting to hear back from them. It is considerably less than your typical adoption so that is one big plus for us. We're anxious to begin as quickly as possible so it's my prayer they return his phone call soon!
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

New Avenue

Chad and I have decided to look into another opportunity. I found an agency who facilites adoption. They are not an agency. They are based out of California but work in all states. Their application fee was free and I submitted ours online. I was expecting for things to go so fast but we were pre-approved and have scheduled a phone conference tomorrow. We'll talk with one of the adoption coordinators. I'm a little nervous but also excited. Especially since our SW told Chad the other day that they are now telling new couples who apply that the waiting period is 2-5 years.

Perhaps this is the route God is wanting us to take. I know that I continue to seek his direction through it all.

But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33